Why am i an Atheist? what is God?

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I am going to explain what I saw in my first experience. What I described as God in my Entry: THE FIRS CONNECTION and you will understand why I am an Atheist.

So, in this Meditative altered state of mind caused by a high production of natural-brain-DMT: I found myself in a place that I couldn't say if it was little, big or infinite. It wasn't tridimensional like our reality, it was something that my physical senses never experienced before. It was probably 4D or more.

At the center of this place, there was a huge sphere that spread black dazzling light, or dazzling darkness, or something I can't explain. It was dark and I felt it was spreading light but it was not a white light but a dark one that does not blind you. 

The Sphere was like half-buried in the ground, but I knew it was a Sphere. I could see it from the front, from the back, from inside and outside, from over and under at the same time from where I was. But not only the Sphere but also all the surfaces of this "room". That's why I had this multidimensional feeling. Everything was made of the same matter.

I knew that this sphere was not a "thing". When my grandmother took me there I felt I was there to understand "everything". This sphere was the source of all information, all energy, and all reality.

Why am I an Atheist?
I've always been an Atheist. Of course, until I was 16 I didn't know I was. I went to the church when my family brought me (fortunately very few times), I did my first communion, confirmation and all these things catholic kids have to do. I went there, I sit, I didn't ask questions... At some point I just realized that the people really believe all these things, it was like a shock in my head, thoughtly though "ohh! really? you really believe this?" I was like a zombie listening to things without paying real attention and without knowing why but as soon as I question myself I realized that was stupid and when I was 16 I told my family: "hey listen, I think you haven't realized that people really believe all these stories in the church. Have you ever think about it?" My parents where like "ummm... what are you talking about? the bible is the word of god" and I was like "omg, they are zombies like I was", o I just told them "ok, you can believe whatever you want, I'm out! I'm an atheist". They understood and never tried to change my mind.

What is God?

God is this that religions say he is. The one who is up there watching you and does nothing. This God doesn't exist. What indeed exist is a source of infinite knowledge that projects itself and create all that exist, through that, experience things, learn, create, expand and grow. Everything that every one of us learns and experiences, goes directly to the source. Every one of us and also everything (every material object) is a little part of this source, a littler bit of the energy of this source. If you want to call it God, go ahead. I personally think that the Word/concept of GOD is already too contaminated, mistreated, misused and corrupted by almost all religions. So, since now I'll call it THE SOURCE.

Each one of us can learn to have access to all the knowledge of the source. I still don't know how to do it every time I want, I don't know how to bring all the knowledge back here (usually when I wake up I forget almost everything), but I will continue trying. When you are in an altered state of mind all your question are answered. You just have to put your body to sleep and let your awareness active.

To learn how to meditate go to my Entry: HOW TO MEDITATE or read my personal MEDITATION TECHNIQUE.

Actualization: I recently saw the Sphere again. Read: Between Lives

Natural DMT Trip 27.09.2016

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This time I listened to a binaural bits audio on the bed, I started seeing lots of images and I turned off the audio to concentrate better. It became suddenly very colorful, very beautiful, I can't describe this forms and shapes, it was almost like if I was seeing a kind of unknown(to me) scriptures in white color but on the top of that, a kind of "decoration" with some colorful characters. 

At this point when I see things I never have a sense of time, so I can't say how long it was but after a while, this disappeared and another "thing" came to me. It was a kind of entity, it was interacting with me but the weird thing is that it was shaped like a cross,  but every side was equally long, and it was constantly emitting energy from every side.


It was not a sharp thing, it was always changing and moving. It was there like trying to tell me something without speaking, I understood like "hey wanna see something cool? follow me!" I answered "of course!", and it started emitting like visible circular sound waves from its 4 sides.  The more I concentrated and relaxed, the more intense it got until it kind of transported me to other realms.

I remember I was in manny different places with this entity, but I only remember a few details, like always. The first place we were, was in the space, close to our sun. He showed me a trajectory around the sun and away from the sun that started exactly where it was at this point. I understood that it had to travel like this around our sun, but I didn't understand if it was trying to say that it is a planet or something else. I remember I asked questions and it answered, I even remember that it put written words in front of me to make clear I get what it was telling me and I just can't remember what it said! I get so frustrated after every DMT trip because you get a lot of wisdom and you can't take it all back to this reality :(


ACTUALIZATION: on 25.11.2016 about 5am I saw the Cross again. I couldn't sleep, so I was listening to a Binaural Beats Audio. As it finished I was falling asleep but then for some reason I told myself, focus on Seeing (Like I explained on my Post: My Meditation Technique), and there it was, I saw the Cross and I thought "oh, you are there!" and I felt it told me "I'm always here, Let's go". And it brought me to show me something. I can't remember anything else.

How do I produce so much DMT (My meditation Technique)

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The best I can do for you to understand how it all started is to tell you everything that I've done or happened to me since I started meditating:

1. I have always been able to lucid dreaming, I don't know why or how, so I can't help you with that.

2. I had a Burnout (Stress Overload), I quit my job and went to my family in my country to relax 5 months bevor I came back to Germany. I wasn't able to sleep, I was nervous all the time, I needed to relax and I thought I should try meditation for the first time. So, I went to youtube and wrote guided meditation for sleep. It worked immediately, I just did what the guide said and I tried different audios every night, all of them worked. I was sleeping really good and I started feeling better.

3. I started getting interested on how does meditation works, I read about DMT, I learned about a lot of new things like orbs, astral projection, remote viewing, and read a lot about things I was always interested on, like telekinesis, UFOs, psychic abilities, life after dead, etc. I found out that everything is related. If we produce a lot of DMT should be able to connect a lot more with other realities. So, I searched for the best way to produce DMT and I found about Solfeggio frequencies, isochronic tones and binaural bits.

4. So, I started every night using all this kind of frequencies, all solfeggios, binaural bits and isochronic tones and also became follow a person on YouTube who has the gift of photographing orbs (goforitRANDY Channel). I found a video of him 
 where he helps other people to get this gift too. He asks the orbs to show themselves to the person who is watching the video and allow him/her to take photos, etc. I tried after watching the video but it didn't work this night, one night later boom! happened my big initiation! The first connection! (read my post: THE FIRST CONNECTION). I really think this video worked and also to watch many other videos of this channel helped a lot to understand more about interdimensional beings.

* I guess it all came to me because I wanted it so badly and asked for it in a very relaxed state of mind (or altered state of mind). I wanted to be able to experience things I believe in and not everybody experience, in fact, things that most of the people doesn't believe in*

5. After this life changing experience, I wanted more and I didn't get much, most of the times. I needed to focus more and relax more. I read that you have to let your body sleep and keep your mind awake and that's not easy, so how do I do it?: After trying a for months I've found the best way for me personally, to produce a lot of DMT:

- I go to bed feeling good, not hungry, not angry with anybody, peacefully.

- I listen to a Meditation music with headphones (not guided meditation) and try every night a different one, sometimes solfeggio, sometimes only isochronic, etc. But never guided anymore(ok, sometimes guided past life regression). It should be a short audio, for me not longer than 30 minutes, sometimes I just need 10 minutes. If it's too long I sleep.

- After the audio is over I try not to move or anything and focus on seeing with the eyes closed. That's the most important part. I can't achieve anything if I don't focus on seeing. If you have patience you will start seeing something.

-At the same time that I try to see, I focus on the sound of my tinnitus (ringing/buzzing in the ears), yes... I don't know if everybody has that, but in my case is extremely loud, especially when I meditate or where any soul wants to get in contact with me.

- At this point it is very difficult to stay awake, the focusing on seeing/listening can make you sleep in 5 seconds but you have to try and try to stay awake. What it in fact happened is that I sleep and some seconds later I force myself to wake up (when I realize that I'm dreaming) I say to myself "ohh no, I am dreaming, I have to wake up" and it happens about 20 times in a couple of minutes, every time I came back from dreaming and start focusing on seeing, I see amazing things like mandalas of many colours, people faces, nice geometric shapes, and sometimes, if I am lucky, I am so connected that I can do a real DMT trip and travel somewhere and learn things.

My first DMT trip (Natural DMT)

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On 08.05.2016 I had the most impressive experience of my life (up to that time).

I've been meditating for the last 7 months. Thanks to the meditation, to the Pineal Gland Stimulating Music in Youtube and also thanks to the Meditation Technique I've developed  (read my post: HOW DO I PRODUCE SO MUCH DMT), I've achieved to increase and control the production and release of DMT in my brain. 


DMT = N,N-Dimethyltryptamine, is a Hormone produced by the Pineal Gland in the brain that connects you or opens the doors to other realities, other dimensions, or how you want to call it. It makes possible to interact with another kind of beings. When a person gets psychic

abilities it just means that this person produces a lot of DMT. Every person produces DMT naturally when we sleep, probably that's why we dream, but if you learn how to control its production, you will be able to use it for way much than dreaming. We also produce a lot of DMT at the moment we are born and just before we die! Meditation ist the most powerful way I know to release a lot of DMT. 

1. It started with the sight (with eyes closed) of a kind of spiral tunnel that was getting closer and closer to me. Then I started seeing people faces, very detailed. Then a strong vibration started in my whole body, so strong that it became uncomfortable, it was too strong in the center of my head, and then a buzzing in my ears really loud, very intense and uncomfortable and it got stronger and stronger, it became painful.

2. Next thing that happened is, that I felt I was so deeper inside this tunnel that the vibration and buzzing faded away. Then it started a very beautiful orchestral classical music that I never in my life heard before, and that I am sure I couldn't have created myself in my imagination. In addition to that, I could not only hear it but also see it (can't explain this). The perception of the sound was like if I was in the center of a huge theater with a perfect acoustic.

3. Suddenly I found myself hovering. I'm a little Orb hovering inside a kind of crystal display case, like in a jewelry store. Every time somebody opens the door of the case, I felt I'm a little shaken by the stream of wind. I had the feeling of being hovering there for hours.

4. At some point, I decided to look outside to the front left, and what I saw was "the hall of fame" of mathematical formulas. There were thousands or infinite Mathematical formulas, everyone engraved on dark wood , and every one had its own podium or table. It had a museum feeling.

5. After that, I was again inside hovering for an eternity and then decided to go out and explore. I went to the right. I was flying and had this feeling of being so little, transparent, light. I saw people and heard them talking and walking there. It was inside a building. I felt again, that I was there for hours. Then L decided to be brave and go out of the building.

6. Before I opened the door to go out of the building I decided to materialize a physical body to prevent to be blown by the wind. And I just did it automatically, I got a body, but I noticed that nobody could see me. I opened the door and I found myself in the parking of the building, in front of a street. In the parking was only one car and it was old, dirty and obviously not in use. On the street was also another car parking, also old. No cars were driving on the street. At the other side of the street, it was a building with glass walls, it was an exhibition place for cars, the cars inside there were very beautiful new - classical, old models - cars. At this point I was asking myself "am I in the past or future?" and I just knew the answer as if somebody was answering to me putting the answers in my head. It was the future, but sadly after many catastrophes all modern devices stopped working and the world went a lot backward.

7. I look in the sky, it's not blue, the sun was so weak. There was a layer of something in the sky blocking too much, as if it was the ashes of a volcano in the whole sky.

8. and then something horrible happened: from the sky started falling huge pieces of structures that looked like a ventilation system but really really huge, bigger that some buildings. They were silver, aluminum appearance, with bends curvatures, you know how a ventilation system looks like. And I asked myself "what the hell is that". The answer was again put in my head: We (humans) tried to correct the environmental problem with this kind of "air extractor" to take the contamination out of the atmosphere. Obviously, something gone wrong, I saw how these things were destroying a lot of buildings. I didn't feel I was in danger, I know I was not physical there but I could't stand it, I wanted to come back to my body and I just let me fall down to my back and I landed just like that on my body.